I know..

I know down deep inside that I cant control who gets pregnant and who doesnt.

I know down deep inside god gave them that opportunity for whatever reason.

I dont know down deep inside why I was handed this life that I hold.

I know I'm here to protect, serve and take care of my family.

I know i'm here to love every baby born whether sick, early, on time or healthy.

I know that I love life more then I can express...

But sometimes I ask why?? why not me?

I have an answer....just not in front of me...one day..just one day...I'll know.

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