I'm on the baby chasing run...

So it's slapped me in the face lately when i've seen my fertility friends kids celebrate birthdays or others get pregnant with their 2nd baby--that i've been chasing this dream for a long time.

Between work & dealing with everyone else--It's like I have little time for myself. Can this be the reason God hasnt blessed me? One will never know.

We started our "first" (second) Ivf round-- I'm getting to start to hate the whole "shot" scene-but what can I do?

I've come to become one w/ myself-on what I want, what I need and actually pursuing it.


They always say things happen for a reason--but isnt that the truth.

I have been fighting tooth and nail w/ my job to go on the Family Medical Leave--so I can be stress free during this cycle. (other cycles i'm always running running running & i think i'm not focused)

Of course the drs office only wrote a letter that didnt uphold anything--just basically saying "she's doing ivf-be easy on her"..

But...then...Feb. 11 (my brothers birthday) I hurt my back. Since then I've been out of work & have loads of therapy ahead of me.

So the past 2 weeks i've sat at home & relaxed...clear mind...with no cares ..no responsibilities...nothing. It's like a whole load has been lifted from my shoulders.

I am legally on the FMLA-for my back but am still able to do my treatments. STRESS FREE~~~~~

So again...i'm running with the wind & chasing that dream.....only baby steps away....from holding that baby in my arm :)

Comments

My life said…
yay for being able to stay home during this cycle! I really hope this is it!
February 27, 2010 at 8:29 PM
Anonymous said…
hugs and baby dust
March 1, 2010 at 1:49 PM
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